A Special Kind of Crazy

This is my "honesty" blog.

I'm trying to figure out what kind of person I am and who I'm creating myself to be.

I plan on posting a lot of "deep in thought" sort of things that I ponder on, but also a lot of nothing in particular, too. ;)

37757.) I’m 16, I’ve never been kissed, never had sex, any of the things that any other girl my age would probably have done. What scares me is that most guys want those things from girls, and that’s not what I want for me. But no guy is going to want a girl like me.

I’m already in my twenties and this all applies to me. 

And I’ve been at that point where I thought “no guy would want a girl like me.” A girl that is inexperienced. But I’ve realized that any guy would be lucky to have a girl like me. He’d know that I’d be faithful and honest. That I would want something more than just fun, but a relationship with substance and real love involved. 

The only tricky part is seriously finding that guy, you know? Or rather, waiting for that time—my time—where I’d meet said guy. He’s gotta be out there somewhere. Our paths just haven’t crossed I suppose. Not yet.

via this is all for you • 22 May • 161 notes
Self-esteem Love Relationships First kiss Sex

I’ve always wondered about this. Especially as someone who’s done theatre in school, and theatre kids are pretty incestuous, you know? Everybody goes out with each other, and we all have the same friends. So…when they break up (which is inevitable, really) what happens then?

Granted I’ve never been in this situation. So, lucky me, right? I suppose. Yes.

22 May • 3 notes
PostSecret Relationships Break ups Who claims what friends?
"You don’t deserve some guy who sees all the great things about you and still doesn’t long to be with you. You should be pined after and pursued like this is the freakin Amazon! You’d be one of those sweet birds I saw on Planet Earth that are brightly colored and do funky dances that make them look like grim-faced hyphens or whatever. So drop that douche and find yourself another grim-faced hyphen dancer."

- My friend, Beth

9 Sep
Quote My friend Relationships

My pillow still smells like him

:)

I want that scent to last forever. Ugh! He smells so good! XP Geez, I’m so hardcore in like with this guy. Goodness. ^_^

19 Oct • 8 notes
So in like Relationships Guys cologne

So fucking true. Ugh.

via All monsters are human. • 22 Oct • 12,827 notes
Relationships Friendships Crushes

I woke up this morning in a house full of guys

Pretty interesting being the only girl there. XP

I slept three feet away from him; I was on the couch, he was on the floor. But I wanted nothing more than to have him sleeping right next to me with his arm over me. 

It was awesome how I fell asleep on the floor, and he woke me up to make sure I could sleep on the couch. He went to get a pillow and blanket for me and tucked me in. :)

*sigh* This guy…

23 Oct • 2 notes
Crush So in like Relationships

Sometimes — lots of times — I get scared to text him

I just don’t wanna come off as one of those girls that is annoying, you know? 

24 Oct
Relationships Friendships Texting Annoying Don't wanna be THAT girl

I wonder if he got the hint last night when I was complaining about the creepy guy that was texting me. How I said “only creepy guys are into me, it’s like a curse.” That was when I would’ve liked him to say something like, “no, not just creepy guys” or better yet… “NO, I’M NOT CREEPY.”

But alas, I don’t think he got the hint.

30 Oct
Relationships Feelings Guys are kinda slow
I fantasize that the two of us would move so perfectly like this.

I fantasize that the two of us would move so perfectly like this.

30 Oct • 19 notes
Relationships Sex Kissing Love

68221.)i never thought that a boy like you would even look twice at a girl like me. and now, look where we are. you’re one of my closest friends~

via this is all for you • 30 Oct • 19 notes
Relationships Friendships Feelings THIS RIGHT HERE